Are you searching the internet to find out what's wrong with you? Are you wondering if you are experiencing some sort of burnout? Are you disillusioned with church? Do you love God, but are ready to give up on church?
You are not alone. Over a year ago, I too, went searching the internet for anyone who had ever felt like I did. I had never experienced anything like burnout before, but I knew in my heart it was something specific to my church experience. I found a website and learned that there is such a thing as "church burnout." Just reading that my feelings had a name, brought unusual relief. The website I found was http://www.smolderingwickministries.org/. At this site, there are a variety of helpful articles explaining the signs and symptoms of church burnout, among many others.
I would love to share my story with you if that would be helpful. You can email me at email@example.com, and I will email it to you. I am still in process, but I have found lots of healing. I didn't give up on church, and have found a safe place to heal. God has taught me a lot through this experience. Even though it wasn't fun, I believe He allowed me to go through it, in order for me to become all He made me to be.
Good things are just around the corner for you. You won't feel like this forever. Even though people may have hurt you, God has definitely not abandoned you. This is the start of a re-direction of your life, with new ways of looking at God, yourself and church.
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels or demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:38-39