Self-Imposed....

I have been wasting time tonight. Why? I'm putting off what I really want to do, which is read my new book, because I know I should study Anatomy and Physiology. But this whole self-imposed pressure and guilt is leaving me indecisive, and I'm just wasting time instead.

AAAAGGGHGHGHGHGH!!!! Why should I feel guilty if I do what I really want to do, and if I'm the one who is going to suffer the consequences of not getting a good grade on the next test, anyway? Who IS this person in my brain? Well, you're going away, sister. I'm going to go read my book and LIKE IT.

So THERE.

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Ro said…
Hmmm... when you find out who that person is, let me know. I think she's in my brain, too!
January 21, 2008 at 9:02 AM
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